It's no secret that I love being pregnant. Maybe that's because God blessed me with getting pregnant easily, having complication free pregnancies, and having amazing newborns! I never posted the maternity pictures that Beth took so I thought I would now. As ecstatic as I am to have Evi here, I can't help but miss her being in my tummy.
Here are just a few things I miss most...
- feeling her kick
- anticipating another voice calling me Mommy
- clear skin
- my doctor's appointments
- hearing her heartbeat
- thinking of names for her
- waking up with a plan just in case she decided to come that day
- seeing the reactions when people saw my big tummy and how little Jude still was
- dreaming of what she would look like
- the pure anticipation of each new milestone
- taking naps and not feeling too guilty for it... totally should have taken advantage of that more
- listening to Finley talk to my stomach
- being super emotional anytime I looked at her sonogram picture
- feeling her hiccups
- my thick hair
- planning her nursery
- my skinny arms and legs
- getting Chewy Spree at the mall
- hearing Finley pray for the "new baby"
- packing her diaper bag
- seeing newborns and knowing that it would be my turn soon
- reading my weekly emails about how she was developing
- talking with Devin about our growing family and knowing that she was a part of both of us
- trusting God on a whole other level knowing I was carrying another LIFE inside of me
- how beautiful I felt... though Devin would probably argue this one because I would always complain when trying to pick out an outfit!
It's kind of crazy that here I am just a few months outside of pregnancy and already these things seem too good to be true. It's hard to believe that Evi really was growing inside of me. I can hardly remember what it felt like to have her kick me or to feel her little body when I put my hand on my stomach and that makes me so sad now.
This whole parenthood thing is bittersweet... I love each and every stage, but I can't help but wish I could have a rewind button every now and then so that I could do it all over again!
(And let it be known that taking these pictures with Beth was one of the funniest days ever! The wind was out-of-control so we'd get set and then my hair would be all over the place and Beth would have to come fix me every 1.34 seconds, Jude was playing/eating/wallering in the mud (it had just rained) and climbing up the stairs and trying to fall off of them, and Finley was taking a nap inside so we were dashing in and out to make sure she was okay and not screaming her little head off. Plus there was one part where Beth had me lying on the ground and decided the picture would be better a few feet over. She moved all of her stuff and then looked back at me and said "Did you hear me?" and I said "Yep, I just have no idea how to get up from here!" We both died laughing and she came to my rescue! It was a day that I couldn't have imagined being a part of with anyone but her!)
